14.

 I never knew how difficult it would be to be a great best friend and a best boyfriend. It's just too hard to be both at the same time, even if u try hard as much as you can.

Most of the time it's just me being a bitch. Infact it's just me being the bitch all the time. But even though I always were like this. She never reacted for being the same. She always adjusted to and calmed herself and tried to calm myself down at the same time too. But I always had this temper problem that I never cared of much. It was always her who had to pay for whatever I felt. 

If I ever got a chance to correct my mistake, it would be to make myself change to a better person than I am. I am too delicate and complicated to be in a relationship. I just feel most of the time like I'm not a bf material. I always make it hard for us to live by. And always brings unnecessary problems even though there is othing to make problem for. 

Ik most of things that I do don't deserve forgiveness. And I really don't want to forgive me for those. But I really do love you the most in this world. There Is no moment that I don't think about being with you, holding hands and walk as if it was the last time we would meet each other. I love you to the very best reason. I love you for whatever and however you are baby. I have hurt you so much more than ever in these last few weeks or maybe months. I never intentionally wanted to do so. But it just happened and I didn't recognize if it did rather than discussing it to you all. I am the dumbest and the most unloyal friend anyone could wish for. I don't deserve to be in a relationship with you. Maybe I was never told be with all of you.

I love my chubby bunny so much more than I love myself.❤️ Seeing and meeting you always made me feel special and it never made me feel enough meeting you. You are the best person in this whole world, who has a beautiful & generous heart for the way you love and behave to others. Anyways,

I miss you so much and I love you so much more baby❤️.

I hope you forgive my family and all others. If they aren't cool with it in the first time. Bye❤️.